Blargh

There are a plethora of topic ideas floating through my head. Amazing vegan recipes I've tried or created, ethno-ornithology "stuff," sustainability and million general thoughts about humans and the state of the world. Of the nature of the time we live in. I often feel so completely disconnected from the humans around me. So caught up in famous people, reality tv and technology. So removed from the natural world.

It doesn't help that I haven't blogged in over a year. Haven't really recorded my thoughts, or researched and blathered about them enough to get them out of my head. I'm not sure why I stopped. Or where the last year and a half went. I got busy. Caught up in life. I needed to sort things out. In my efforts I have become placid. In becoming placid I have stopped researching things that upset me. I haven't quite put my head in the sand, but I certainly have tried to avoid "confrontation." The concern, heart and frustration linger. I cannot pretend to be dispassionate. I still worry about how people live. About nature, wildlife, minorities and the poor. About environmental injustice. I still enjoy research, analysis and debate. Fighting for what I believe in. How do I balance all of this with my gentle, peaceful and centered side? How do I become the peaceful warrior?

Maybe I don't need to be a warrior at all. But I don't know how to care about revolution and change without being a warrior.